hoyo!

that was a busy weekend!
Pardon the no posts.

I'm struggling at work. 
Struggling to be in the moment and accept what is...partly because I DON"'T KNOW WHAT IS.
well, what is going on in my bosses brain.  Apparently I  have *way* more responsibility than I gave myself credit for.  And I got ragged on for it today.  and I cried.  Part of me felt like I knew this was coming.  Like I knew I wasn't doing a good enough job. 
I've never had to be this responsible before.  Responsible for other peoples actions. 
It doesn't help when people don't listen.  Or don't do what I ask...I don't know if they are listening or not. 
How do I be a good...supervisor?  How do I have people do what needs to be done without sounding like a bitch. 
I guess first is leading by example and not complaining anymore. 
I tend to act kinda flippant and uncaring so I *don't* seem like a bitch...but that seems to lead people into thinking I don't care, so then they don't care. 
And my boss seems to do things backwards, and we're all getting really tired of it.

I'm trying to live "loving-kindness".  I keep forgetting.

Just a moment!

{this moment} - A Friday ritual. A single photo - no words - capturing a moment from the week.

626-650

todays 25

-mist
-blueberry oatmeal
-Gayles in the rain
-clematis blossoms
-leaning into agner
-saving worms
-not getting a parking ticket
-dry feet
-the boss leaving
-snacks from shoppers
-not a lot of weeds
-baby photos
-hearing both sides
-a learning experience
-getting kicked in the but by the golden rule
-writing a fun bio
-getting excited to perform again
-J moving forward
-watching a terrible movie and making fun of it
-couch snuggles
-making decicions
-not waiting anymore
-FRIDAY
-pink hair
-the weekend

601-625

yesterdays thanks

-sleeping well
-nice clients
-remembering to *lean*
-no migrain
-J getting a laptop cord, TP and bringing back *my* library books (best husband ever)
-spinach pie and my first ever chocolate eclair (from a client)
-working alone
-Gyuto monks chanting
-easy day
-new music
-blue jay and cardinal calls
-a trip to the flower shop
-cute french boy in overalls
-fresh asparagus
-apricots
-finding out I'm eating fairly well, and to eat *better* I need to eat more of some of my favs
-lilly of the vally
-lilacs
-my mom...it was her birthday (best mom ever)
-more enlightenment (one drop at a time!)
-praises from boss
-toast soldiers
-more plants for friends
-good acupuncture treatment
-the smell of rain

576-600

only 400 more to go!  WOW

-sleeeep
-cool morning
-pancakes and bacon
-knitted moustache (photos SOON)
-too many crakcers
-chocolate milk in my coffee
-the Diva Cup!
-an affectionate Pickle 
-little rain
-lack of ttc collector=free ride (we needed to buy a day pass...we waited i bit, but we had to go)
-deep fried food
-berry cake
-shaded patio
-PATIO!
-book shopping
-only buying 2 books
-Leonard Choens poetry
-pizza night
-baby Ethan Hawk and River Phoenix (10 points if you know what movie I'm talking about!)
-more knitting
-being alone
-dish washer
-linen napkins
-Spring/summer
-J
-new found control

551-575

this day, I'm thankful for:

-early morning Saturday
-St. Lawrence Market
-linen pants (yes, still)
-pea meal on a kaiser
-unclarified apple juice
-not buying a treat at the market
-finding chocolate in my bag
-eating said chocolate
-diva cup
-the hope of new deodorant that works AND doesn't irritated my pits
- organic jelly beans
-knitting
-sushi lunch
-maple fudge
-caramel
-M Bear
-chicken dinner
-watching kids work together to make a river
-sweet girl on the subway
-Seeing Bunny, Sisu and Dem
-Dufferin Grove Park
-pink toes
-pink grapefruit italian soda
-chocolate
-'Chanting' with M Bear

the weekly menu

Sunday- Home made pizza
Monday-Soup (v)
Tuesday-Bok Choy stir fry (v)
Wednesday-Asparagus and sausage
Thursday- Pesto pasta with broccoli and shrimp
Friday- Bun, pronounced boon
Saturday-Mac and cheese with Broccoli (v)