A few months ago J and I went though a tough spot.
We're fine now, and in counselling to resolve our communication issues.
I was just sitting here thinking about a few things that where said back then. One of them was that I wasn't sure I was ever happy in our relationship. SO weird. It's not true. But I was in a place of major pain, so that's all I was feeling/remembering. The negative aspects of our life together, and not how I felt daily. My love.
What an interesting concept. Feeling so angry that you can't remember ever feeling love. And I suppose the other way around happens all the time too.
I wonder if practising mindfulness would help with that. Being with, accepting and embracing those feelings. Rather than getting sucked in and loosing yourself.